Thoughts on a sleepless night

Have you ever had one of those nights where your thoughts just keep you up? That's what's happening to me... It's not fun I'll tell you what. As I'm sitting here at 3 AM writing this blog thousands abound thousands of thoughts are going through my head. I just want to tell me brain to quiet down so i can at least sleep! But i don't think that's ok to happen so i decided to do what i can actually do best. And that is writing woooo!

Anyway back to thoughts. Thoughts, Thoughts.... So many different type of thoughts that could keep people awake, like for instance "oh that one boy was cute i wonder how i could get him to talk to me again...." or "I wonder if we have any chocolate in the house, cause i'm really wanting some right about now..." or other thoughts that people might have. My thoughts are actually much different. "where should i apply for a job next...", " what career should i go for so i can support myself..." thoughts on any young mind who doens't know what he/she wants to do...

I have been thinking though, that i might become a Journalist. I do enjoy writing, so it might be fun? I don't really know, people say that you have all the time in the world to choose what you want to be. but then everything seemed so rushed, like there is a hurry to choose and choose now. Or life is just going to pass you by and you'll just be standing there with a dumb look on your face... Then when you do decide what you want to do then what? Will it just be the same day in day out? or will be different everyday with a new surprise? Who really knows? I guess you just have to choose then find out what's waiting for you... If it happens to be boring then YOU change it up a bit and make it fun. I guess that's what i'm trying to say?

Oh the things we think during the night that keep us awake. will there ever be a cure? Probably not, they say that your brain still works while you are sleeping. So thoughts just coming in all the time without stopping... What a mean brain! I want to sleep!

Ok i'm done babbling i'm going to try to get some sleep. Let's see if my brain will let me. GOODNIGHT READERS

Personal Opinion: The Blame Game

I have noticed something.... That most of the human race can't take the consequences of their actions. When something doesn't go as they planned they blame others for their failures and can't except that they are the ones that are most responsible. I guess it makes them feel better to put the blame on others...

What I have observed and what most people don't realize that when they blame others they are holding back Themselves. With grudges they are blinded by what's waiting for them in the future. They only see what's in the past... The "wrong doings" of the people that they see did them wrong. Therefore they are unhappy and are unable to reach the good things that could be waiting for them in the future. (Yes i do realize that there are some cases that can't be helped with this)

Take teenagers for instance most of them like to blame their parents because they can't do whatever they want, or they have to do things they don't want to do. They blame their parents for not loving them and then rebel and get into trouble that could lead them to death. Which actually most parents love their children and just want to seem them safe. (Again i know this isn't always the case, and I'm sorry for those of you who are in such situations...) But still they blame and rebel not realizing that they are the ones who are making them unhappy and not their parents.

Sometimes people play the blame game not with other people but with their own disabilities. Like a person that's Anti-Social (there's actually a medical term for it but I forgot what it was) who wants friends but because they blame their anti-socialness and let that hold them back they are unable to make friends. Or people with A.D.D. and A.D.H.D, most of them have been told that they are "stupid" or "unlearn able" to the point where they believe it and start blaming their A.D.D./A.D.H.D. for the reasons why they do so badly at school. They don't realize that A.D.D./A.D.H.D. does not mean that they are "stupid" or "unlearn able" it just means that they learn differently than others and actually most have an above average IQ.

People just need to realize that they are actually the ones holding them back, not other people... Sure it might be easier to blame others but it will get you nowhere fast. If a person has done you wrong it's OK to be bitter towards that person for a little while. but if it's like a year later and you still blame them then that's your own fault. It's in the past! All it's doing to you is making yourself bitter and unable to trust anyone.(I know not true in big cases but true in most) So get over it already!

If you have disabilities and you are not trying to overcome them, just blaming them. STOP IT!! The reason we have disabilities is so we can try to overcome them and be proud of who we are! If you are doing nothing with your disabilities and just letting them rule your life that's your own dang fault!

Take responsibility for yourself for once. Stop blaming others for your unhappiness and look in the mirror. Because 90% of the time it's your fault and no one Else's.

There that's my opinion, if you don't like it... TOUGH! For it's MY opinion, doesn't mean I'm right it's just what I THINK!

Let it Snow!!!!

Call me crazy but i love snow!!!

it happened to snow all day yesterday and we probably got about two feet of snow. So can you imagine how i reacted this morning after it stopped? I was literally at awe! The snow is so pretty it just makes me smile. i just had to take pictures!

You see how deep it is? It's freaken amazing!

Another thing about snow is icicles. I think they are just really pretty on a house. So of course i took pictures of them too, but not very many though most of them melted before i started to take pictures.

Took this picture right before it fell. Almost hit me too!!

Found this one on the ground look how big it is!!

This one was right outside my window. It's my favorite it shows individuality it just shows that even with icicles their are odd balls

A Sleepy Ride Home

Yesterday was a sleepy day. When I say sleepy I mean sleeping. I kept falling asleep no matter where I was and being at school didn't help much either. Anyway I guess my story takes place on the train ride home from school. This semester I'm living at my Aunt and Uncle's (i'll blog about my adventures with my cousins later). They live pretty far away from my school so I have to take the train everyday.

On the way home I was worried that I would fall asleep on the train and totally miss my stop so that kept me awake. But apparently that fact did not keep the guy in front of me awake. while he slept he kept swaying like he was going to fall. I was kinda worried that he was going to fall onto my lap. So keeping an eye on him I noticed he was wearing a cowboy hat. Seeing how out he was i was so tempted to take off his hat and take pictures. But being the chicken that I am I decided that that wasn't a good idea. I did take a picture of him and how tempting his hat was

See!!!!!!!! Tempting!!

New Apartment

Hey readers sorry I haven't blogged in a while. here's what happened since i last blogged.
Got a job at the Regal Theater during the summer, took a few guitar lessons, went back to school in utah, moved into a new apartment, and turned 20 this year.

Everyone keeps asking what my apartment looks like so i gots some pictures for you people to see.

This is the Kitchen. Roomy huh? And in the little closet in the corner is a washer and dryer

As you can see the living room

The huge Bathroom

The room I share with my roommate Ashely it's a little small so we got a bunk bed

This is the second bathroom that Ashely and I share.

This is Ashely's cat Baby I absolutly love her and i think that feeling is mutual

That was the tour to my little apartment and to be honest i couldn't have picked a better place to live for this semester.

My New Guitar!!!!!!!!

I totally just got a electric guitar today and it is awesome. I'm totally in love with it. I've hardly put it down. I can't help but want to play with it. I got such a good deal on it too. Not only the guitar, the amp, the cord, and the guitar bag all for under four hundred dollars. If that's not a good deal then i don't know what is.

This is my baby!!! He's a Squire, which I'm told is a really good brand

My baby with His amp. And yes he is a boy. Thinking of calling him Frankie. Don't know why but he looks like a Frankie

Me and my baby Frankie. Doesn't it look like we belong?

As you can tell I love my new guitar and I am so excited it start learning some songs so i can rock on.

Music is my passion

So lately I've been obsessed with music more than ever. I mean really obsessed, like going to photobucket and looking up pictures obsessed. I know I know I'm a nerd but I can't help it. So while I was looking I found some really good pics like these.

This one is just adorable


This one is one of my favorites

Here's some cool music art because it represent music

As you can tell I LOVE music. I'm even getting into some old school rock like Led Zeppelin, Motorhead, ACDC, and Metallica. Hey I'm looking for more music to get into so if you know of some I might like let me know